back from camp...no one knew? I know at least one person did

I'm a bit sad, but it looks like I can hang tomorrow, so that's good.

camp...1st week was drinking and hook ups, but then we all go to know each other, and it went downhill from there.

then it got boring tho. the boys were feining for ass and I started to dislike them. Now Gabby's not coming back and it might REALLY suck 2nd session : ( 

hmm...'s bin soo long since my last post here. cuz no one ever commented sao I got bored

no one comments on my Livejournal either anymore. cuz they're all too caught up in their own loser lives. Most livejournal ppl on my friends list aren't very nice people...y do I ahve them on my friends list? I do not know.

so life....is too fulla crap

well it's my own fault that it's crappy. I make it that way. I get myself embaressed and think about the wrong ppl and want the wrong things and act the wrong way, but it's not that easy to change unfortunately, otherwise I would in a second.

I'm sad everyone's leaving...life's gonna be a bitch in 11th grade. I'm not excited.

grrraawww, I ahte being an obsessed stalker (even if it's only in my head)

yes...I am insane

my dreams kind of convince and inspire me to feel a certain way about things or ppl. If I have a dream w/someone in it and I'm not already close to that person, I'll feel closer to them just b/c of my dream. It's very weird. well, unless my dream depicted them in a bad way.

So...I may not even know the person very well, and all the sudden I feel like a friend to them. Or my dreams can make me like someone more. It's so weird!

I wish I understood everyone more and they understood me more, but then life might be boring.

 So I'm a bit annoyed...  
why do ppl ahve to be such jerks?? especially the ones I consider my friends.

w/e w/e w/e I just wanna go to sleep n not wake up for a looong time.  

He's leaving the day of =W=

Sebastian...Sebastian, guh I dunno what to do. I feel bad even if supposedly I shouldn't.

I miss him again. I have like the biggest lil girl crush I think. It's sad. I wanna be over him already. wtf? I plan on seeing him soon tho. I'm glad it's so easy. Maybe we can at least be friends?

graw